Eulogy 1

Would you believe me if I say your words shatter me?

Complete in my awe

I walk away

I am used to walking away from everything that moves me

As though I can afford to be shattered only once

To witness you in close quarters and be broken again and again

Is as beautiful as it is, frightening.

Dig a trench in my heart

Where I can hide some semblance of sanity and self away

Because this could be war

My body riddled with holes where you have reached me too sharp and too fast

I allow myself to be in this line of fire

Where gentle touches could burn like acid

While deluding you into believing

That you are growing new skin

An Ocean In My Palm

When my heart broke
It fled to the soothing embrace of the ocean
Waves crash back. A flash of lightning
Illuminating a single memory
Till unwillingly my floodgates open
To the illusion of you
In hallways and corners
In dark rooms. You were but a kind illusion
Who missed the sea.
How many can say that kindness broke their backs
And that they themselves conspired with the sea to break their own hearts.
There was just one at fault in the end.
I walk past you with an ocean of emotion hidden in my tight fists
As you calm the currents in my veins. My world slowed down for you
As I hope the waters wash away your invaded grief
And that the sea finally dreams of you.
As the breeze whispers the last secret to me
That I never really knew you
When my heart broke
It fled to the ocean
So I let it drown me sometimes.