An Ocean In My Palm

When my heart broke
It fled to the soothing embrace of the ocean
Waves crash back. A flash of lightning
Illuminating a single memory
Till unwillingly my floodgates open
To the illusion of you
In hallways and corners
In dark rooms. You were but a kind illusion
Who missed the sea.
How many can say that kindness broke their backs
And that they themselves conspired with the sea to break their own hearts.
There was just one at fault in the end.
I walk past you with an ocean of emotion hidden in my tight fists
As you calm the currents in my veins. My world slowed down for you
As I hope the waters wash away your invaded grief
And that the sea finally dreams of you.
As the breeze whispers the last secret to me
That I never really knew you
When my heart broke
It fled to the ocean
So I let it drown me sometimes.

Rein

I stopped writing when the clouds lifted

And I saw the sun for what it was

Brutal and real

I stopped finding when the delusion lifted

And I saw that you were real

Brutal and real

Shining like the sun

I avert my eyes

I see you only in the periphery of my vision

I never stopped watching

I am attuned to you feeling your light

No matter if our eyes don’t meet

But I always walk away

Waiting for the day the rain will wash the memory of you away.

Waiting for the day the gentle rain will let me be myself again.