Did they see us?
The wall that refuses to break.
The blank that refuses to have love poems written on it.
The empty that has space for no longing but for that of peace.
Love is living but always having lived without this heady brand of it makes me feel like it will be a certain death that I will be tempted to embrace.
My lonely is at peace
So when you watch me leave and my blood is a river threatening to flow right back to you
I will have a strange difficult decision to make.
I fought for my peace
Everyday has been a war fought in a proxy land
In the third space between my mind and tangible reality
So when I space off, I am fighting.
When I walk… alone, I am fighting
I have fought my battles
And when a friend walks into her war
I will rent out my worn out armor with a free hug
Because at least something good should come out of this.
This history of just fighting. This history of just fighting.
When I see you, how do I tell you that being shattered by you will be a lovely end
But I still crave living.
I still crave my peace
My nothingness.
My blank.
Untouched by love.